Politics.

Definitions are important when they rest on something that resembles truth and have the quality of being unquestionably obvious. A doctor is defined by their inclination to care for patients. In absence of this simple impetus the role, however monolithically revered by society should erode and dissolve in a vacuous mess of pretense.

Hospital medical administration is defined in a similar manner. It breaks my heart to hear a good friend assert 'they don't care' as if it were an accepted given. We define them.

So i wrote a document with the desire to affect change. A document that was one part diagnosing the particulars of ineffective administration and 3 parts pragmatic suggestions for improvement. Diction was mindfully tempered by a consistent theme of diplomacy but inadequacies were presented adequately blunt to reflect a palpable dissatisfaction that was several generations deep. Said document found it's way up to the meta-administration that is the nebulous locus of administrative control, whom in turn forwarded a directive to not discuss the entire content in absence of appropriate 'executives' being in attendance.

I was summoned to meet with the Medical Director to discuss the 'Bigger than Ben-Hur' nature of my document. Meetings without a clear agenda are like a blood test for anaemia. Repeated tests only yield the same conclusion and quite fragrantly leaves the problem unfixed. I don't like meetings. Would sooner bake a cake.

Rhetoric based on an insidious employment of corporate jargon to confound and dissolve the gravity of a real problem that affects a multitude of doctor's lives and their families and ultimately patients, deserves rhetoric with more substance. Please don't knowingly use terms i don't (need to) understand to attain empty levity in argument and alleged authority on subject matter, because it's quite obvious, suffocatingly myopic and blatantly deceitful. Doctor's are aware of the dubious power that speaking a foreign language in 'English' yields, so let's not play that game.

Politics is vexing. But necessary to alter the status quo. Now is unfortunately not the time to make that change. I will wait until this wee fire burns big enough to not be put out by the wind outside but be fed by it.

I have spoken enough for now, so will return to listening for a while until my next eruption of consciousness.